Rania Matar

A Girl and her Room

The images were captured using a digital camera and all natural lighting. They are Archival Inkjet Prints on Museo Rag Silver Paper printed at 24”x 36”.

As a mother of a teenage daughter I watch with awe her passage from girlhood into adulthood, with all the complications that it entails. As I am observing her and her girlfriends, I became fascinated with the transformation taking place, with the adult personality shaping up and with an insecurity and a self-consciousness that are now replacing the carefree world those girls had live in so far. I started photographing them in group situations, and quickly realized that they were so aware of each other’s presence, and that their being in a group affected very much whom they were portraying to the world. I also realized that under an air of self-assurance, those young women were often very fragile, self-conscious and confused. While their bodies were developing fast into women’s bodies, they were still on many levels young girls who suddenly thought they had to behave like adults.

From there, emerged the idea of photographing each girl alone. I originally let the girls choose the place of their choice and was slowly welcomed into their bedrooms, an area that is theirs, that they can fully control, decorate, trash and be themselves in, within an outside world that is often intimidating. I spent time with each girl, so she was comfortable with me and was able to let down her guards, free of any preconception of what she would like to portray consciously. I was fascinated to discover a person on the cusp on becoming an adult, but desperately holding on to the child she just barely left behind, a person on the edge between two worlds, trying to come to terms with this transitional time in her life and adjust to the person she is becoming. Posters of rock stars, political leaders or top models were often displayed above a bed still covered with stuffed animals; mirrors were always an important part of the room, a reflection of the girls’ image to the outside world.

Being with those young women in the privacy of their world gave me a unique peak into their private lives and their real selves. I thank them all for their trust and their willingness to share their private space and their private self with me.

This work is in progress. I am in the process of expanding it to include girls from different backgrounds in the US and abroad.

anna
Anna 17, Winchester MA, 2009

brittany
Brittany 19, Boston MA, 2010Brittany 19, Boston MA, 2010

danielle
Danielle 20, Boston 2010

emma_1
Emma 16, Brookline MA, 2007

kenza_eenager
Kenza 15, London UK, 2009

krystal_teenager
Krystal 17, Boston MA, 2009

siena_teenager
Siena 17, Brookline MA, 2009